Fulfilling My Promise

I said I wouldn't let this blog become a derelict (see also: lost cause) and by God I won't.

What's happened recently?

Well, I found out that 'she' didn't date one of my best friends, that was a misconception. They went to a dance together as friends. She used to like him, however, so now things are a bit awkward. Been talking with some friends about how to go about trying to grab a relationship while the spot's open, got some varied feedback. I don't really know what I'm going to do, but, just to humor a friend of mine, I'd probably show up with a boombox on my shoulders playing 2Pac's "I'd Rather Be Your NIGGA" and just let the conversation flow from there. Only not really because I'm horrified that could go tragically wrong.

I'll probably just take the nutshell version of the advice I received- Be myself. Be honest. Won't be difficult to do, I just hope this isn't a waste of time. It's not like I'm doing anything with it anyway. School's boring, I'm making a diorama of a desert... It's silly. I really don't mind it though. A few more weeks of this stupid shit, a great summer, and then I get to have a real schooling again.

My depression seems to be gone. My art is improving, maybe I'll share some in a future post. I recommended my friend, whose losing her memory like she was hit by a truck, start a digital diary, something like a more thorough, detailed blog on her hard-drive. It seems like it'll help her, but, not totally sure, wishing for the best.

I'll update as needed.
-E

I don't believe in silence, because silence seems so slow

I'm sorry for abandoning my followers, all one of you, but, I sort of forgot this existed. How can I sum up the last few months... My family took the death pretty hard, but, we're making it through. The memorial was beautiful besides the dysfunction. A friend of mine from Philadelphia who I consider a brother moved back to this small suburb while he job hunts. I'm doing well in school, all good stuff. Went to a friends' 18th birthday party and met a cute girl. Got a bunch of goodies for Easter.

Here's where things get just a bit sour. A train hit someone from the town yesterday. It may be my PTSD or just shitty luck but I heard the whistle at roughly 3 AM and woke up most unpleasantly. Now I can't find anything to do to fall back asleep so I figured I'd finally update.

I think the biggest (well, I wouldn't call it a problem, so, find a fitting word to put here) in my life at the moment is that said cute girl is a bit older than me by a year or two and dated one of my best friends. I don't want to be a douchebag to him, so, I'm gonna ask permission to seek after her.

What's so special about her, right? Well, for one, she's beautiful. Perfect smile, cute features, elegant way of moving. That and when she caught my Portal reference and responded with another reference, I'm pretty sure she stole my heart. Meeting a fellow Whovian who isn't a basement dweller is rare nowadays. If nothing else I think I can make an awesome friendship with her. Here's to hoping things work out.

P.S: Was considering making this a slender man blog, just throwing that out there. I decided against it. My life is interesting enough as is, don't need an eldritch abomination showing up by a cruel joke by fate.