Colors all the brighter when you're near
The stars are all the fire in the sky
Sometimes I get so lonely I could die
All The Love in the World - Nine Inch Nails
I told Mom just about everything, if not more, than what I've shared on this blog. Her first question, much to my amaze, was "When is she going to visit you?" I don't believe how well this went over. I feel like for once, my prayers were directly answered.
We got to talking about her for a bit, and, I think my mother could tell just how much I cared about and love her. My mother said she'd have no problem whatsoever with her staying with us whenever she was around. It's such a relief, as if all this pressure on my chest is just gone.
The only bad side to this is that R is a little hesitant to visit now. I got super excited, possibly the happiest I've been all year, when my mom accepted that I liked her and approved of me continuing to seek a relationship. Naturally, anyone witnessing this, even if just by a phonecall, would be a little freaked out. I think she jumped to the conclusion that if she visits, it will automatically ensnare her in some trap of a relationship. While that would be nice, (the relationship, not the ensnaring) I'm still planning to give her all the space she needs. If she decides during the visit, then, sobeit. I still may get to see my best friend visit me two years earlier than expected, possibly even this October. Mayhaps, damn me for using that word, even for our birthdays. For that I'm overjoyed.
I don't think I can go to AWA to meet up there, but, my mother -did- mention possibly shipping me down... I don't know what to think. I'll have to ask R about it and what she thinks.
Today is a great day.
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